Anxia < 3 ∞

Anxia Unnatural | Reality is Horrible, Darling

Anxia Unnatural | Probably nothing, right? 2nd version

I wrote this while I was visiting Santa Cruz a couple weeks ago.  Just rerecorded it.

i wrote and recorded this in january and i just relistened to it.  at the time I thought the lyrics were too self-indulgent it was hard to take myself seriously.  But listening to it again it’s worth existing, perhaps I’ll explore it further.  here have the ridiculous lyrics

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Light my fuse
tonight we’ll be breathing in our skin
This pool is immersing me in illusion
this escape is what I was trying to escape
and i can’t help but hide
Don’t take me home
Cause I don’t have a home
It’s a cloud make of light
Reflecting off the sea
but how many oceans does it take
to wash me away


(just shut up
no ones wants to hear my whining bullshit
I talk about how worthless I feel
maybe it’s because i am
i could be trying to help someone
or living a full life
instead I just curl up into a ball and hide
just die
shut up
no one should care
least of all me)